Special

Disclaimer: The following is my thoughts and opinions.  I might lead you astray...but I might not.

Definition of special

1. distinguished by some unusual quality; especially :  being in some way superior <our special blend>
2. held in particular esteem <a special friend>
3. a: readily distinguishable from others of the same category :  unique <they set it apart as a special day of thanksgiving>b :  of, relating to, or constituting a species :  specific
4. being other than the usual :  additional, extra
5. designed for a particular purpose or occasion

My doctor told me I should write this.  Not for my benefit but for...you?

She thinks I am special.  She sees me as being out of the ordinary, in a positive sense.  Flattering, but I do not feel special.  In fact, I do not want to be special.

Our planet has something along the lines of 6 billion people alive right now.  How is anyone special when there are 5,999,999,999 others?  If I am special, maybe I should get more stuff than other people do.  If I am special, maybe everyone else should treat me differently.  If I am special...maybe I am better than everyone else.

But I am not.

Let me back up a little and totally contradict myself.  Each and every one of us is special.  If even one other person cares for you, then you are special.  If no other person cares for you, there is probably a dog who adores you, making you special.  You were created by a God who endowed you with specific gifts and talents for a specific purpose.  That makes you special.

But He did not make you more special than me.  He did not make me more special than you.  Special is not even a consideration for Him.  To God, asking which human is most special is like asking which weighs more, a pound of feathers or a pound of iron?  Different but the same.

Step #1 = accept that you are not special.  Step #2 = accept that you are special.